Hell, I even helped create one here:

I think we could have left a saying off. It makes it sound like some of him could "come back" and we don't want that. At least not like that.

It’s a good thing I have a zombie survival plan, cause my brother would think it REALLY funny to come back and eat me first, you know?  He had a sick sense of humor.

He’s been gone almost 10 years.  And his son turned 9 today.

I left him some flowers (He liked carnations, but things like roses and lilies gave him headaches…) and then I went and saw my grandma.

My grandpa and aunt and uncle and great aunt and uncle and my dad had already been there, so it looked nice when I got there.

I don’t go to funerals, I tend to freak out (and there are other reasons) but visiting a grave later seems to help me the most.

I miss them so much.  It was quiet here.    The rain felt very soothing to my soul today.

It’s a good thing that life has a way of offering you comfort and hope, isn’t it?

-Went to the Dr. yesterday, cause I felt like shit and my throat hurt.  I don’t have strep but he did ask me how I was managing to swallow….. Told him I wasn’t sure, but it wasn’t easy.  Am taking antibiotics.

-Facebooks privacy settings are better.  Am feeling a little better.  I still hate it, but since it’s how I keep track of people, shrug, what do I do?

-I took my mom to the airport today, I already miss her.  She said the visit didn’t go as badly as she thought it would.  She left my dad, who claims he didn’t see it coming and had no idea and what she’s doing is just wrong.  (Except for the whole “I’m not happy and x,y, and z need to happen if I’m going to stay that she’s said twice before.)  I think she should have left 6 years ago, when she first wanted to.  But she gave it a chance. SEVERAL chances.  She’s been in the Portland area since January and while it’s tough and I miss her SO much, I am SO PROUD of her for leaving.  I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, life is too short to be miserable.  She and my brother flew in to attend my littlest sister’s graduation.  It makes you feel old when someone who’s diapers you’ve changed graduates from high school.  Anyway, daddy just doesn’t get it.  Kept trying to hug her.  Didn’t understand why she asked him to not touch her.  Is really very angry about it.  I understand that his heart is breaking right now, but I also understand my mom’s was broken a LONG LONG time ago.  No point in watering a dead tree. My brother is going to try and stay in Middleton for a month, to visit.  He loves his dad a LOT.  But he is not happy there, anymore than my mom was.

-People who are family completely snubbed my mom.  Some of them are Mormon and my dad’s family and I think they simply don’t know what to say and probably feel torn. One of them was my sister, who didn’t even bother to come down and talk to my mom at the graduation ceremony. My mom went and saw her- at her work for a minute. But she has REALLY hurt my mom, to the point of tears. Shame on her. I’m just kindof… done… with her.  She’s made it abundantly clear she wants nothing to do with me, which is fine.  But I was doing the “right” thing and inviting her to parties and the like, because it’s the RIGHT thing, no matter if she snubs me.  But I think I’m done with hurting myself.  Part of it isn’t her fault- she’s living in an unhealthy environment right now and isn’t encouraged to like me. But part of that IS her fault.  I am just pulling completely back. IF she wants something to do with me, then I’ll let her call me.  I deleted her number in my phone so I don’t bother her with texts and nonsense she isn’t interested in. It’s just really very sad.  I just wish she’d been kinder to my mom.  Mum always gives so selflessly, she doesn’t deserve that crap.

- Oh, did I mention that I rubbed makeup into my eye accidentally??? And it’s really red and swollen and irritated?  And my husband told me I was beautiful last night anyway?

-I’m cutting down trees this weekend!  In my back yard!  WOOT!

- FOUR DAY WEEKEND FOR ME!

-Still not pregnant.

-Emma graduates from kindergarten next week. *sob*

Have I mentioned that I love my mom?  And that she’s my best friend?  She’s so awesome. I am so proud of her!

Graduation for my youngest sister. Am old. And trying not to weep. I am a sentimental fool.

Damnit man! Call me back! It is of utmost importance that i know if you have a zombie survival plan!

My to do list for today. Yes. Really.

Really spam people?  Does this kind of thing really work???

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Cause I gotta tell you, I’m not the LEAST bit interested in seeing what you are about.

BUT hey, while you’re at it, why don’t you share the info of the people that it DOES work on- Cause I’ve had this bridge sitting in my inventory for a REALLY long time….

I was watching an episode of “Good Eats” (Alton Brown is gonna be my second husband, yo) and some commercials came on for Mothers Day.

FUCKING MOTHERS DAY WAS TWO WEEKS AGO! (I have nothing against mothers day, but the marketing, GAH!)

I was seriously annoyed and then decided to fast forward the commercial because the episode was on the DVR.  And then I realized I’d recorded it two weeks ago. So I was being pissed for no reason.

*WIN!!!!*

Just by going HERE and leaving a comment.  That is it.

And if you blog about it, it’s another book.

Look.  I just got a child two books and it took me thirty seconds.

Won’t you please help out?

I’ve been stressing about this subject…

Most people think of family and only put in people who share the same genetics or parents or last name.

Wikipedia states:

In human context, a family (from Latin: familiare) is an exclusive group of people who share a close relationship.

I’ve long believed the term family should be reserved only for people you love, who love you back and treat you well.  As a result, I’ve got sisters who are acquaintances and friends who are sisters. I have a biological father who is accorded the same respect and familiarity any random stranger in a grocery store could expect to receive- while I think of his ex wife as another mother.

Who says you can’t choose your family? There are people online with whom I’ve only ever talked to on the phone or met a couple of times who love me more than people who’ve known me all their lives. THEY are family.