I’ve been silent on the whole Roman Polanski mess because I didn’t know what to say that wasn’t very personal. And I’m pretty vocal about a lot of things.
I was sexually abused by a babysitter when I was younger. My husband is the first person I ever told, possibly because he’s the first person who’s ever loved me that much, other than my mother and I couldn’t tell my mother because it would hurt her too much to think she was sending me someplace that I was being hurt.
I have forgiven that person, for the most part. But there are days I am still angry. And if there was a way I could press charges against her I think I would. No amount of time has made what she did to me okay and I would like her and other people like her to understand that.
And she has married, had children, hell, is probably a grandma by this time. Her life went on and so did mine but I remain damaged. Not much, as far as it goes, worse has been done to other children, but WHY does any child have to live with ANY abuse? WHY? The fact that I have gone on to show no visible signs of trauma, to have a normal life in no way negates what that woman did to me twenty years ago.
SO I don’t care about Roman Polanski’s supposed genius. He’s a monster who RAPED a little girl. And he should pay for that.
I have composed a post for Violence Unsilenced, and when it posts there I will post it here, but I’m done being 10 and scared. So I’m starting to say something. I’ve told a couple of my sisters and a friend and even my mother in law. And now I’m saying it here.